The Instagram Facebook struggle is real y’all. It is. At least in my life.
At least every two weeks or so, I am texting my husband or bringing it up to him to talk about. And that’s not even saying how much it is on my mind and I’m not bringing it up to him, because it’s a lot more.
I struggle with a lot of things related to it.
I struggle with not feeling connected to the world. Let’s face it, most of the world relies on some sort of social media to stay connected in some way.
We see people post pictures and it makes us feel like we know them. Like we get a glimpse into their lives. Like we stay connected to what’s going on with them and their family and their world.
“They” post pictures giving them a way to connect them to you/us/the world. This keeps them in touch with you/us/the world. And “they” rely on this way to keep in touch instead of reaching out to you or me or others they just post something.
We like their picture. This tells them … hey we see you … we like you … we are still connected to you. We can see who is liking our pictures and usually how many likes we are getting right and that makes us feel “liked” … “seen” … “heard” … “known”… and good. It can impact us if we get likes or not.
We can post our whole journey/story good or bad, struggles or victories on Facebook or Instagram or Twitter or whatever without saying a word or laying eyes on another person. That’s kind of scary and sad and a like what is the world coming to kind of thing.
And honestly sometimes I want to post all my struggles on social media. I want to bare the honest truth about Lyme and all it’s realness as well as nastiness and at the same time point others to the truth while shining the light on the Lord and all He has brought me through.
But then on the other side of it I don’t. I want people not to just have to numb out and scroll through something to get to know me or feel like they know me at least.
It’s like I have this want to be heard to be seen to be known but not unauthentically. I want it to be genuine.
But maybe I’m being unrealistic in this day and age? Am I?
Seems like everyone is too busy. Too busy to call … to busy to answer a text … to busy to idk let the world know their thinking of others and to see the ones around them. I mean I think that’s important.
So the social media struggles are real. They exist. Do I give in to conform to the world?
Or do I stand firm on being authentic and not giving into the numbness of social media?
I mean it can be good don’t get me wrong. And please please please don’t hear me say I’m all high and mighty and came to this realization all on my own … I took a much needed break from social media about 4 year ago because I was numbing out. Missing my kids interactions right in front of me. Too concerned with what my “friends” were doing without me at the time then connect with my family and especially my husband.
See it started out as a good thing for me and then the enemy gets his little foot in there and slowly it can go down hill if your not constantly self evaluating and bringing things before the Lord.
I don’t know. It’s so hard. It’s a constant battle. But I’ve learned that the hard stuff is usually worth the battle. It’s worth the fight. It’s is. I know it is.
I have a unique situation where I have this chronic invisible illness as they call it.
Chronic cause lets face it it’s been over 3 yrs now that we have been battling this.
Invisible because I can put makeup on and get dressed and go to the kids football game for a couple hours and look and seem fine, but no body knows that I’ll be in bed with a migraine out to the world for the rest of the day because of the sun shiny sun and the noise and the people and the stimulation and all the walking and watching Layla cheer and Hunter play football and that’s if it’s a good day with no joint or bone pain. And that’s just situation me and my family deal with, it’s constant. But this is a whole other post all in itself.
So anyway … I’ll keep praying for the authentic friendships I crave. For authentic friendships and encounters for you as well. And that most of all that we would find them in Jesus more then this world.
And I’ll keep battling to win this fight with Lyme and maybe one day feel differently about social media but I doubt it.
It’s not all bad. It’s not. It can be good. It’s just not good for me. I miss it. I do. I miss seeing you and you and you and all of you but I want to live like Jesus. Love like He loved. See you like He sees you. And when I have social media in creates a stubbling block which inhibits me from loving like He loved and seeing you and He sees you.
Funny thing … I was gonna post this post “well apparently I hate social media.” But after taking some deep breathes and praying for a few days I don’t hate it. I just see now that it’s not for me. I kinda wish it was but it’s not. I’m thankful the Lord and the Holy Spirit has led me to the realization … gosh y’all this road I am on is long and hard and heavy and a battle and it leaves me weary and I have a long way to go but I think no social media helps me in that journey.
So now I just need to not listen to the voices that will no undoubtedly show up in my head and try to convince me otherwise probably sooner rather then later. Am I right or am I right?? 😉
That was a little heavy…. I think it deserves a sweet throwback video of