Posted this on The IF site today and it was encouragement for some so I wanted to share it here. The question was “what specifically are you worshiping the Lord for today?” Below is my answer …
Yesterday was a hard day … While at the doctors office the pieces of my suffering fell heavy on me. I’m not sure what I expected the doctor to say – and I’ve been having some good days – but yesterday the suffering and this journey that we are still in the midst of and just the unknown came to a head and I couldn’t hold back tears anymore. I just wept. The suffering just hurts and it hurts not only me but my whole family and I just couldn’t be strong anymore.
And while in my rocks (my hubby) arms he started reciting the part when John Piper talks in the song though you slay me by Shane and Shane.
“Not only is all your affliction momentary, not only is all your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there. But all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain, from the fallen nature or fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that.
I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! It’s not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what it’s doing. Don’t look to what is seen.
When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at 40, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say, “That’s meaningless!” It’s not. It’s working for you an eternal weight of glory.
Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach his word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.”
And we prayed and thanked our God that this suffering that we are experiencing this pain “it’s not meaningless, it’s working for you an eternal weight of glory. Of course we can’t see what it’s doing.”
And so that what I am worshipping Him for this morning … For hope … That this suffering is not meaningless … That it’s not for nothing .. That our God is good and faithful and even though we can’t see what this suffering is doing … We can rest in Him who is working for our good, who will bring good out of this, who is our God our Father and is with us no matter where we are in life … Suffering or not … It is doing something … It is not meaningless.
So long story short – sorry I blurted out so much just now – I am worshiping Him that this suffering I am enduring is not meaningless and He is with me and He is good.