It’s Friday faves y’all!!

 
I’m feeling well this morning and you know why?? In the midst of left over soreness from the bone marrow biopsy I look around and just the the Lord speaking my/our surroundings and I just am reminded of what I’ve been trying to implant in this brain of mine … we have hope!! We have hope y’all. We do. We have the Lord and He has already paid the price for us and so no matter how bad things are or feel we don’t have to let it defeat us because the Lord has already done the defeating. 

I know, I know. It’s so hard to remember but I think after repeating it over and over to myself and to friends these last two weeks it’s finally made it to my heart and it’s helping me in the midst of the messiness and so keep fight and repeating and praying and y’all it will help. I promise. And if you need help in the mean time tell me and I would love to pray and speak truth to and for you as well!! 

Ok … on to my favorites for this Friday!! 
First up … let’s just take a moment to take in the beauty that God is doing here on Solitude lane (our home). 


I mean it’s truly just breathe taking. And if your not careful and reflective it will pass you right by. 
Some of you (my Florida family) may not be seeing it quite like us north of you are but still look around, breathe the thinner less humid air πŸ˜‰ 

Ok second favorite is … this guy … 
My hubby! He is just, I can’t even tell you. Just a gift and an inspiration and more then I could ever describe to you. He sat with me through the bone marrow aspiration and biopsy so strong and comforting. He got me a pumpkin spice latte after and found the next favorite thing (that I’ll tell you about in a min), and let me fall asleep on his chest and wake up with this awful snore thing like you see in movies, the really loud obnoxious ones and he didn’t even video tape me or anything, he just kept saying as long as your sleeping I don’t mind at all. God has blessed me and grown us into something I never thought we could have and I’m so thankful for that and for my rock … Mr. Danny Breece. 

So third is this deliciousness… 
Ok so I had seriously been stalking Fresh Market since the end of September, stopping in there numerous times a week looking for this stuff. And of course my rock stops in there to get a sandwich after my procedure on Tuesday and through my groggy sedativeness I say, just look for the pumpkin peanut butter, it prob won’t be there but look up near the register just in case … and guess who comes out with it … yep my rock! I was too sleepy to truly get as excited as I should have because this stuff is so so good. I put it on my gluten free waffles and even sometimes have a spoon full with a few dairy free chocolate chips on top!! Mmmm. If you like pumpkin and you like peanut butter your gonna like this!! 

My last favorite thing is a book … 
So my rock again, gosh he has just been on fire this week…arranged while I was drugged and enduring the procedure I never wanted to endure, to have his momma pick me up my favorite peoples (who have no idea who I am) book!! 

We were walking through the hallway to go back to sign in for my procedure and they were being interviewed on the today show because their book was finally coming out that day, of all days!! 

Of course we stopped to watch, cause really, I wasn’t that excited to go sign it and they make me happy so we had to stop. πŸ˜‰ And I was like oh yeah their book comes out today. 

And wouldn’t you know it, Dan the man had his momma pick it up for me and it was on my pillow when we got home. Isn’t he just the best. He’s so thoughtful. I just love love love him. And the book is good y’all!! 

Well there were my favorites/love fest of Danny Breece this week. I did promise to tell you about my procedure so here’s a little scoop about it. 

Tuesday was the day. We got back from Florida Sunday and I went and had it done Tuesday. 

All and all it wasn’t as awful as I thought. It’s the thought of what they were doing and the noises that would be made that really just made my neck hairs stand up. You know? 

But the nurses were fantastic πŸ™ŒπŸ» and the medicine they give you helps you forget all the noises in a neck hairs standing up kind of way. I mean I remember but it’s not like … blah don’t make me talk about it. The nurse was very attentive and I turned my head toward her because she seemed like the safe place. Whenever I winced or my heart rate went up due to pain, she was right there to give me more meds. And before I knew it I was back holding Dannys hand sipping something to drink. 

I came home and slept all day until the kids came home. Then off and on again till dinner and ate some chili a gluten free corn bread that a sweet sweet friend made for us. Then slept all night. I was thankful for the sleep for sure. And the food of course!! 

Now I’m just sore in that spot and when I’m up too long my back will start to hurt. I have been having increased dizziness when I get up but I think it’s cause removing the marrow and a piece of the bone has just thrown my body off a bit. 
All and all it wasn’t awfully awful and it’s over and the fact that at over should be one of my favorite things .. right? 

I’ll leave you with a song … a praise hand emoji song that’s on repeat for me right now.

Before you listen, here is a little of my favorite parts … 

“There is a light that overwhelms the darkness…There is a kingdom that forever reigns … There is freedom from the chains that bind us … Jesus

Who walks on the waters Who speaks to the sea Who stands in the fire beside me He roars like a lion He bled as the lamb He carries my healing in His hands …Jesus

Messiah … My Savior … There is power in Your name You’re my rock and my redeemer there is power in Your name in Your name

This is just a little bit of the song … and I added the emphasis but it just so powerful. I pray you feel it’s power, His power. Really y’all. I pray for all of you. 

Sometimes knowing people are praying for me help me keep fighting and helps to bring a little bit of peace into my life. So rest in my prayers! 

Here is the song. 

Florida lovin’

Life lately has been fun and exciting but at the same time emotional and draining. 

I’ve really had to work to speak truth into my life and remember that at the end of the day I have HOPE and that makes everything worth it in the end. 

Last week the kids and I traveled to Florida!! Danny stayed back. He usually takes a few days off work for hunting coming up and with us never knowing when I will have a dr appt or be sick he limits his days off as much as possible. 

We had a fun time away but have come to realize that we really don’t like traveling alone or being away from each other. We have never been ones who need time away from one another, we are just better together and God has really shined a light on that here lately. 

Our time in Florida went by too quickly as it always does, but boy we’re we excited to get there!! We were there for my sisters induction into the university of tampas hall of fame for softball and let’s face it we will take any excuse we can get to go to Fl. So off we went. Here is a few pics…

Love Laylas little photo bomb on this picture next to my cousin Alecia. This is a picture of my brother, sister, mom, dad and me. My other brother, sister in law and fam weren’t able to come because of hurricane Matthew and the damage they received on the outer banks. πŸ˜ͺ Hate that we missed them so much. 

Other then the induction we basically watched the kids in the pool, I rested and we soaked up some much needed Florida family time. 

Hunter was surrounded by girls but was such a trooper. His kind and loving heart shines through and the girls just adore him!! 

I had a rough emotional few days but seeing the kids enjoy themselves so much and love and be loved made all the pain and tears worth it. 

Goodbyes are not fun. There’s no other words to say about that. The sadness is evident in the pictures … 

we miss our pop-pop so much. 


Layla and Ariana pick up right where they left off and bonded so much this week. Layla wears her emotions on her sleeves and was making us all cry as we left our sweet cousins. 

Saying goodbye to Dee Dee. 


Goodbye grandma. 

It’s always so exciting to get to Florida but so hard to leave. We are so thankful we feel so loved when we are there and even when we aren’t and always look forward to the next time we make it down there. 

Coming home I had to get physically, emotionally and mentally ready for the dreaded bone marrow biopsy. 😏 I’ll hopefully write a little bit tomorrow about how that all went. I will say … I did survive and am recouping at home with an awesome new book to read and a couple warm blankets ❀️

Love you all and talk to you soon! 

Friday mashy mash-up!!Β 

It’s that time again … Time to take a look back on the books I read last month and tell y’all a little bit about them  annnnddd Ive also include a couple favorite things to share with you today so that’s why I’m calling today’s post my Friday mashy mash-up!  πŸ™‚ 

First up is … 

Brain on fire 

Ok so Amazon has been suggesting I read this book for a little while now. I think it was based on books I would search for on Lyme or MS and I was at the library one day and the library fairies helped me stumble upon it. Love it when that happens πŸ™‚ 

This book was gripping and inspiring and really a good fast read. I related with it on a couple levels. Many times I have thought, am I going crazy, just like Susanna did in this book and she literally was. So much so that one day she woke up restrained in a hospital bed unable to talk and couldn’t remember how she got there. Her family though never gave up on her. They fought for her and for her sanity and kept fighting until the medical community stopped pushing her off and started actively searching for an answer. 

Being a nurse I’ve seen when someone just switches, they go crazy and medically all we know how to do is medicate them and their family tries and tries but usually the person in their craziness just pushes them away and even in all that Susannas family never left her side. They fought and fought for her and in the end they win the fight. 

I really enjoyed this book and like I said it had me pretty much from the first few pages. I just love memoirs and the courage and fight and heart and soul they expose of someone. They are so encouraging. 

Second we have … 
Women are scary 

I heard this women on a podcast, big surprise right?! πŸ˜‰ 

Anways, she had just released a book called Its Not Fair:learning to love the life you didn’t choose, and gosh I was like yes, I want to read that. Well it was kinda pricy and her first book, Women are Scary was super cheap and so I got that one instead. 

It was a good read. Funny and cute. She has a quirky sense of humor and it comes out in her writing. This book probably is more for someone younger to read who’s kinda trying to figure out the whole girl friends dynamic maybe a college or young mom girl. 

I did enjoy it and it have it in my possession so if you wanna borrow it let me know and I’ll mail it to you. With a little love note of encouragement as well. Cause I ❀️ notes. 

Third book … 
Play with Fire

This is an IF girl … You know I love my IF girls!! She is one of my favorite speakers and has such a fire for the Lord and you can feel that fire through her speaking and writing and her book definitely speaks to that. 

She takes you through her life and highlights the Lord through her darkest days and reminds us that even in the most painful moments, which can either refine or ruin us, God is right there walking us through the darkness. And He has the power to transform your life. 

This book will make you laugh and maybe cry and just want to throw your hands up and yell … Yes, preach it Bianca πŸ™‚ I did purchase this book so if you wanna borrow it … You know I would love to loan it out to you!! 

Last book for September is … 
Have a Little faith 

This book was so so so good y’all!! It needs to be made into a movie, plain and simple. I loved it!! 

It’s a true story written by Mitch Albom and it’s just wonderful. You should definitely read it and if it ever becomes a movie, see it!! 

There are the books for September!! It was definitely a good month for reading!!!! πŸ“š

Couple favorite things to bring before I leave you because this first favorite thing I haven’t rightly gushed or taken a picture about it yet and it’s deserving and the second favorite thing I think needs to be on repeat in your car if it’s not already! 

So first up … 
Yep, you read the cup correctly … Pumpkin Spice Latte. 

I can now gush about it without any backlash from my hubby about being a season creeper since we are a week into October and gush I will. I love me a pumpkin spice latte with coconut milk and no whip cream!! They are delish and remind me of fall and just get me in the all things pumpkin mood. And I tell myself Mmmm I’m sure it’s waaaay better then that gluten and dairy filled pumpkin cream cheese muffin so I’m just gonna sip on it nice and slow and repeat it over and over to myself as I drink it. 

Oh and stare at my “stormy skies” new jamberry gel which I may or may not … Ok I totally am in loooove with!! So much so that I think it should be named “Oh my gray-sious” because that’s what I said when I was finished painting them!! 

Ok so … my second and final favorite thing this week is the song Priceless by For King and Country. 

Here is the video … 

I was so blessed, really I’m not being overly dramatic when I say that, so blessed to see For King and Country last weekend when I was at the E women’s conference and I’ve been on a For King and Country high ever since. 

They have a tremendous story and message and their songs … Gosh y’all their songs are just so so good. The lyrics are so so good and did you know that a lot of them were written by Luke, one of the lead singers while he was battling for his life last year or so, ok I’m not sure when but it was when he wasn’t sure how many days he had left. It’s not over yet and shoulders and without you are just a few, there’s probably more. 

It’s not over yet and shoulders are a couple that I love and help me throughout the day and need their own post because they are so so good so look those up. Priceless is the one that’s my current fave and let me tell you why. 

I want this song to sink so deep into mine and especially Laylas heart and soul and brain that she never doubts for one minute that she is loved and thought of and special and priceless to our God. And Hunter too. 

I have already seen Layla struggle with this which hurts my heart so much and I want to do everything I can to speak truth to her and I feel like this song helps in such a simple way. 

So every morning on the way to school, we listen to it. And every day on the way home, we listen to it. And any time it’s on the radio, we turn it up. Because we can’t ever get enough reminders the YOU are PRICELESS!!! 

I’ve included the lyrics below … Love you all!! 

Priceless 

Mirror mirror, mirror on the wall 

Tellin’ those lies, pointing out your flaws

That isn’t who you are

That isn’t who you are
It might be hard to hear, but let me tell you dear

If you could see what I can see, I know you would believe

That isn’t who you are

There’s more to who you are
So when it’s late, you’re wide awake

To much to take

Don’t you dare forget that in the pain

You can be brave, you’re safe
I see you dressed in white

Every wrong made right

I see a rose in bloom

At the sight of you (oh so priceless)

Irreplaceable, unmistakable, incomparable

I see it all in you (oh so priceless)

He did it again …Β 

So remember that post a while back how when I say things I never wanna do or I’m scared of for some reason then the Lord decides to make them happen?? 

It happened again! 

Let me take you back … One day quite a bit ago I was just out of nursing school … A year or two … beginning my career as a nurse. I was working in Florida and on a crazy busy intense sicky floor. 

Every morning I wrote in a prayer journal asking … pleading with the Lord to be with me throughout the day. That’s a “whole-nother” blog post. Let’s just all take a moment and say a prayer for all the nurses out there. Because y’all unless you are a nurse you have no idea all the demands and gosh stress and worries and just … it’s just harder then you can imagine so pray and hug for a nurse today … K??!! 

Anyways back to the point. While I was working on that floor I had to assist at the bedside with a bone marrow biopsy. And y’all I remember coming home and telling Danny, well … There is another thing that I will never do, I’m never having one of those done. Nope. Never. Don’t even think about it. Ok maybe if I have to knock me the heck out k? k! K!! 

Fast forward umm … 10 years and I’m sitting in the hematologist office yesterday discussing my low WBC count and she says the words, I knew she was gonna say but didn’t wanna hear. I’m holding my breathe and she says it … “I think we need to do a bone marrow biopsy.” 

Shew. 

And there it was. The Lord at work once again. 

And this isn’t all in my head. Danny even said to me last night as he’s hugging me and I’m about to lose my fight … Maybe not lose my fight just allow myself to feel the weight of the day, but he says … Just don’t bring me into any of these your never gonna do or afraid of antics. πŸ˜‰ 

The good news … Well first of all and most importantly is, our God is a good God and has me and is in this. And secondly the dr doesn’t think anything critical or scary is going on here … She just thinks my WBCs are low and sporadic due to the Lyme infection and all the antibiotics that I’m on. She does however want to proceed with the bone marrow biopsy so we can just put any blood disorder to rest. 

So that encouraging and a blessing and after going so long without answers on all this sickness it will be nice to get an answer and know wether this WBC thing is or isn’t a problem.  

It just makes me sigh really and want to burry my head in Dannys big hug because it’s just another way the Lord is refining me. And I need to remember that. This isn’t all for nothing. It’s doing something. It’s not meaningless. 

So yeah it’s scary but He’s in it. And all this refining … Lord all this refining won’t be for nothing. The Lord doesn’t work that way. He just doesn’t. And I’m gonna work hard to remember that and to shine the light on that and on Him and to keep all the lies out. 

So if you wouldn’t mind to begin to pray for the bone marrow biopsy and for me. I’m already nervous about it and it isn’t even scheduled yet. Should be within the next 5 weeks or so before my follow up. 

Pray I can stay strong but also allow myself to be weak when needed. Pray I will rely on the Lord and not on things of this world, that I will remember He is my rock, my refuge, my strength, my redeemer, my ever present help in times of trouble. Pray I will run to Him during this time and not away from Him, that I will see the truth and not the lies. 

It’s gonna be ok. I know it will. It’s not meaningless and it’s doing something and I am so thankful for the Lord and His provision even in these refining moments. 

I remember hearing a quote in the movie Gods not dead, let’s be honest … You hear it all throughout the movie. And I remember thinning it was a little corny but sometimes we need the little corny but full of truth things to help us keep moving toward and leaning into the Lord. You know? We need the corny to bring us a little light and laughter and smiles. There is truth in the corny and I’m thankful the Lord has helped me move from only seeing the corny to now seeing the truth and holding tight to it. 

Here is the quote … “God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.” 

Amen. 

*September books hopefully coming soon so stay tuned. πŸ˜πŸ“š

**Remember hug a nurse!! πŸ₯

What’s up Wednesday!!Β 

What’s up Wednesday… 

So it’s the last Wednesday of the month and since following mixandmatchmomma.com I’ve started doing a few things modeled after her blog and so this is one of them. 

She is amazing, has amazing clothes, an amazing family, an amazing cookbook (that I can’t wait to get), an amazing house … So on and so on. I mean granted I only know her from 1. Her brother was Sean on the bachelor and 2. From this crazy thing we call the internet that connects us in ways gosh who ever knew would happen. But through it .. the Internet and her I’ve been blessed and inspired and I’m thankful. So thank you Internet and mix and match momma πŸ™‚ 
Anyways, I’m gonna reach down and try to find the energy to do this post it’s been a rough couple weeks but I can get into that another time. Today is about what’s up with me and team Breece, so here we go. 

So once a month on the last Wednesday I’m gonna try and answer the following questions … 


So first up … 

1. What we are eating this week … 
Eating … Well eating has been hard for me these last couple weeks. Things look good and I want to want to eat them but having the energy to fix something or physically chew something just isn’t there. 

But I have found joy in my new pumpkin coffee from fresh market. 
And these new finds from fresh market as well. Ive tried kumbocha before the ginger one and it just wasn’t for me. It’s slightly carbonated and me and carbonation don’t mix but I did find this cranberry one. As well as this green one (my fave) which are both good. I shake them slightly every so often and get some of the fizz out. But it has a ton of probiotics in them and I feel like they are already helping my tum-tum. 

2. What I’m reminiscing about? 

No doubt … This past summer. 

When we slept late, binged on Netflix, swam in the pool and most importantly spent all day everyday together as a family. 

3. What I’m loving? 

Nourish hand lotion by jamberry. Being a nurse I’ve probably tried every hand lotion in the book. And I’ve resisted trying jamberry’s lotion because I still have bottles all over the house half or unused. But nourish is by far the best I’ve found. It’s just awesome and I can already tell a difference in the softness of my hands and it’s only been about a week of using it. 

4. What we’ve been up to? 

Football …

and Rest … Rest … Rest. 

A head cold has been running its course through team Breece and this round of meds has been hitting me hard so when we aren’t at football we are home resting. 

5. What I’m dreaming about? 

Strong hands, long runs, sleeping and feeling rested in the am, late night date nights, new fall plaid shirts/tunic, cute fall booties, dark nails and all things fall!! 

6. What I’m working on? 

Staying strong, staying positive, finding joy and holding onto hope. It’s always kinda hard with the ups and downs of Lyme and it’s treatment and not sleeping real well but the fight is worth it. 

7. What I’m excited about? 

All things fall. My husband has called me a “season creeper” for quite a few weeks now. So he thinks the fall pumpkin situation in our house is strong now … Wait till October 1st because then it’s on!! 

8. What I’m watching/reading? 

Well anytime a fixer upper re-run is on I’m watching that! No doubt, for sure. We even wake up saying it’s fixer upper Tuesday! And have it on all.day.long. It was brought to my attention this summer that some people near and dear to my heart (Alecia and Aunt maria) had never seen it and if you haven’t seen it before you need to start right away. If you like antique-y, farm house living you will love it. If not, I’m sorry, you probably won’t but you should still give it a try. There is even a fixer upper magazine “magnolia journal” coming out in a few weeks that I’m excited to get my hands on and will be reading for sure!!! 

9. What I’m listening to? 

Lately I’ve been listening to podcasts whenever I’m not up for reading. I’ve found a few that really speak the truth and I need and want to saturate my life with the truth especially when I’m not feeling great and they have been a great way to do that. 

Here are a few … 

I have been a fan of the happy hour podcast for over a year now and it never disappoints. 

Moms struggling well is newer on my radar and I’m loving it. She deals with not just easy issues but tough ones as well and does an amazing job doing it. 

You all know my new found love of the Christy knockles Glorious in the mundane podcast. 

This one I was listening to then kind of got out of it but then listened last week to the episode “the nos of fall” and it’s hilarious. I even told some of you about it as well as listened to the beginning of it with my hubby.  

10. What I’m wearing? 

Nothing too exciting here. Basically just pretty nails, no makeup and comfy clothes like tights and a sweatshirt.

11. What I’m doing this weekend? 

I actually have plans this weekend πŸ™‚ A handful of women from church are going to a conference in Richmond, so it’s a one overnight stay away with friends and I’m excited. Praying I feel better by the. Danny will have to man football alone and work the concession stand on Saturday so pray for him but he a rock star and I know will do great and love having some alone time with the kiddos. 

12. What I’m looking forward to next month? 

Simple … All.things.fall! 

13. What else is new? 

Not too much. Just fighting. Oh wait! Yes, in a couple weeks the kids and I are going to FL for my sisters hall of fame induction at the university of Tampa. We are so sad to leave dad but so excited to see my mom and all our FL family. 

Last but not least … Bonus question …

14. What is your favorite fall food?

Pumpkin spice latte made with coconut milk and no whip … For sure!!! 

My kids favorite is probably the pumpkin muffins we make. Not gluten free 😦 but they are super easy. All you need is … 

1. 1 Can of pumpkin purΓ©e

2. 1 box of Spice cake (just the mix nothing else) 

Combine those two things together. Then we add mini or regular chocolate chips. And your done. I usually bake them at 350 for maybe 10 min. I just watch them because we like them a little doughy in the middle. 

Well friends, that was my first what’s up Wednesday. I hope you enjoyed it. You can always comment and tell me what you have been up to, I would love to hear about it. For serious! 

Hopefully I’ll see you Friday for some Friday favorite. I’ve missed you all. 
Remember keep fighting…you are worth it!!! 

One last thing … As Hunter was about to go play football I say … “Hunter show me your mean face … Your grrrr face” Here it is … I then say … “Layla let me see your grr face …” Here it is … 

Wether you feel the fight of Hunter or Layla today keep it up, everyday is different and that’s ok … You are worth it. 

Women are scary y’all!!!Β 

So I started a book yesterday … 
That’s a picture of it. This is the book I was telling you about, that I bought for $6 off amazon. A non-prime,barely used, happy accident. 

It took a little bit to get to me … Hence the non-prime. But it kind of came to me as a whisper from the Lord. 

If you a guy reading this blog … Danny, dad, my brothers … I feel inclined to say sorry and mention that this post is mainly speaking to women. Though as I think about it … it may be good to read, cause I wrote it πŸ˜‰ and because then you can encourage your wife and daughter and sisters in our relationships with other women. 

Anyway, my point, the whisper from the Lord. Gods just been knock knock knocking or whisp whisp whispering in my ear lately. 

One three different occasions, that I’ve taken note of, there was probably more, there has been a theme occurring … Let me explain. 

First last IF bible study was on discipleship. Based on Matthew 28:19-20 the verse known as the great commission…this one … 
Then Sunday at church we had a mini sermon on the same great commission verse. 

Then this morning during some quiet time the Lord led me to psalm 71 verse 
Lastly, this book, that I had forgotten I accidentally happily ordered, showed up on my door step and I was like ok Lord I get it, speak to me!! πŸ™‚ 

So I made this my next book to start reading and dove in. Everything so far has been really good, underline good. But then I came to page 41. And a quote made me have a moment that I had to share. It couldn’t just wait until my normal monthly book update. 

Let me back up just a little bit and tell you what this book is about. The title kinda of days it all right?? It’s all about how scary us women are. I mean we are aren’t we? I mean we can be, that’s for sure. And even when we aren’t, we assume or we start the looking way too much into it an interaction of conversation or whatever, and we make something out of nothing. Because really that’s not how she wanted to portray herself or anywhere close to how she is but we think she hates us or is snotty or unkind or too good for us. We make up these things cause we are scared she is scared and so we are just scary. 

It’s scary the way we make things out of nothing right? We make things out of nothing and then the enemy … Gosh he probably plays the biggest role in it all. 

He just feeds us lies about ourselves and other women, you know the lies … the ones that get in our head and consume us and keep us from building relationships with other moms and or women. We all we really want is to build relationships with people like us … women, moms, same age, older then us, same life stage or different, passions unique to themselves that we could be inspired by or help fuel their passions with our passions. 

So back on track I’ll go, sorry, As I was saying…41 pages into it she says ” it’s discovering we’re on team Mom together.” (I would add team women here.) she goes on ” and if we’re on the same team then that makes us teammates.” And that my folks is when I was like yes yes yes yes yes!!! 

We are all on the same team y’all!! We are. We all have our faults and stupid petty ish and our annoying little habits and awkward ways of not knowing really what to say and in turn saying way to much and or not saying anything at all. We all at one time or another throughout the day probably feel like a failure. We all have thoughts of I’m not good enough or my life is totally ishy or I want more but really I should just be grateful for what I have why can’t I be grateful? Somethings totally wrong with me, no wonder I’m lonely and can’t make friends, I wouldn’t want to be my friend either. And so on and so on and so on. 

The enemy hears that and dang it he never lets up and fogs our eyes and ears with lies instead of the truth! 

But I feel like sometimes … if we would just say out loud that we are all on the team. If we would just remember that, we could and would be soooo much happier. Could we as she says ” lift our eyes off our own mess Lon enough to smile at the mama across from us?” 

I think I might be rambling a bit. I just really feel like if we put down our mess embraced our brokenness and our awkwardness and came together with the mindset of we are on the same team, we are a united front ready to help one another and live one another and build one another up … Wouldn’t that make life and our womanly relationships that much better? 

You know in Matthew 28:19 He says “Go and make disciples of all nations … ” and at first that sounded intimidating to me. I’m not good at going, that sounds like extroverted kind of stuff. 

But I realized one day it’s a marathon, not a sprint right? So I can start small … Send a thinking of you text or note to someone out of the blue. Or I can look others in the eye and really mean it when I say, how are you? 

And even if that sounds like it’s too much right now, maybe later but not yet … Start in your own home, with your hubby and kids and the first discipling them through love. 

Begin my going and loving. Love well. Love when it’s hard and awkward and messy and broken someone else would give up. Keep going and loving. And love when it’s pretty and neat and maybe predictable, love then too. The mess will come trust me πŸ˜‰ 

And like it says in Psalm 71 … Keep going until your “old and grey … Until you declare His power to the next generation.” Because that’s what your love will do. It will lead those you are loving to Him, it will shine His light and proclaim His mighty righteousness. 
So we are on the same team y’all. And I love our team. I want to hug our team and send a little thinking of you note to everyone of you. 

Because I am, I’m thinking of you and routing for you and praying for you and fighting for you and loving you even from afar. 

It reminds me on pitch perfect … You know at the end when Becca has finally embraced her Aca-women friends and  says “I love you, awesome nerds.” 

Well guess what … I love you, all you scarey awesome women, me included. πŸ’—

Friday faves y’all!!!Β 

Happy Friday Y’all!!! 

It’s Friday and that means it’s time for me to bring you a few of my faves from this week!!! 

I’ve been kinda sicky this week, I started back on antibiotics on Saturday and it’s been a vertigo and nausea and migraine and pain filled week so these faves may be a little mellow dramatic but we are gonna focus on the positive and remember the good things and I am starting to feel better so πŸ™ŒπŸ». 

First up … Can we talk about these jams? 

You may have seen them in a book picture his week and I am still crushing over them. Look at this picture … 

These jams are 10 days old!! 

I don’t know what’s gotten into me … 

I’m usually a grey/blackish/darker nail kinda girl but I’m crushing over some white nails lately. Gatsby by jamberry may be my next indulgence but I need to order them. 😁 

While we are talking jams I might as well bring you my second fave of the week which is … 

The new fall Jamberry catalog. 

Though the fall selection seems slim the grey/darkish nails are plentiful and I’ve already circled a ridiculous amount of styles that I love. You can go online and look through them all … And if you need someone to order through you can do it on that site that I gave you or if it won’t work and you need help let me know. 

https://sarahosborne.jamberry.com/us/en/shop/shop/for/nail-wraps?collection=collection%3A%2F%2F1120

Next on my list is a food… 

As many of you know I eat gluten and dairy free as well as as little sugar as possible and I have missed me a good muffin. 

I mean good ones. Honey bran raisin or top of the morning muffins from Earth Fare. I have tried numerous recipes off Pinterest and I just find one that is good. Not just edible but good. 

Well I found these muffins pictured above at the grocery store the other day and I had a πŸ™ŒπŸ» moment for my muffin search. 

Granted it’s not a big indulgent bakery made muffin but this muffin is the best gluten dairy free muffin I have had yet! Its not grainy or dry or tasteless. 

I literally texted my mom and sister saying it was straight from gluten free dairy free muffin heaven!! And these weren’t the only ones … They even had a few varieties. If you are gluten free or not even … You should check them out!! 

Number 4 is … 

These second day school pictures. I don’t know if you read my post about why we didn’t do first day school pictures, if you didn’t scroll back a few post and you will find it, but long story short…life happened and we opted for second day pictures instead and they came out great. 

Hunter even wanted to take a couple silly selfies. 

He is really just growing into a young man, figuring out this world and I can’t even say enough about his loving kind heart and spirit. 

These kids love each other and that is clearly shown through these sweet pictures. 

My last favorite thing is a quote. It’s from Jennie Allen, the founder of IF. She wrote it on a blog post yesterday, you can find the whole post here … 

http://www.Jennieallen.com 
“What I know, is that I’m called to a humble, yet bold life with God. I want to make myself small, so He can be big.” 
That second part really made me stop in my tracks and think yesterday. 

“I want to make myself small, so He can be big.” Yes!! We must make ourselves small so that He, He can be big. 

So many times I get caught up in the this or that stuff of this world when it can just be done so much simpler. You know what I mean? When I pump myself up and think how big and good and wise and worthy I am … can I see Him? Or am I seeing Him? Am I showing others Him when I do that or look like that or talk like that or think like that or act like that? Nope. It’s the complete opposite. No one can see Him nor can I cause I’ve made myself too big and Him too small. We have to make ourselves small so He can be big. 

I saw one other thing this morning that affirmed this for me and kinda made it simpler. Not only do I need to become small so He can be big, I need to Love God, Love people, the end. The end. The end. You know?? 

Even when we are sick or tired or busy or stressed or anything we can love God and love people the end. We don’t have to do anything more then that. And in that loving people we must must must love ourselves. I’m not sure we can love God or love people very well unless we start with ourselves first. 

Something that helps me remember to love myself even when I feel like I’m not worthy or worth it, is to remember that even at our worst, our very very worst, even with knowing our worst sin we have committed or will commit God choose to go to the cross to save us…you…me. Even at your worst He choose YOU!! 

Keep fighting … Keep leaning in … finding joy and lovely and silliness and faves … He made them for you!!! He already knows and proved that you were worth it. So believe it too. You are worth it!!